when i look on walls in fb ..i can see that most dlm 90% of my frens are in raya mood...
they look so happy.. sending e - cards..
write all the raya wishes...
but for me this late 5 yrs...raya alsways be the ssame..n makin lama makin boring... sbb cuti panjang sgt...
like last raya.. on the frst raya is nice la..gathering kat umah my makcu... with nenek.. n all the fmily. cousin.. secodn couz.. dtg visiting my nenekk.. meeting al my long lost coz.. yg dulu2. masa kecik2 kita kawan..now sume dah jd bapak org...
ok la.. that was the peak time of my raya...
n the most meaningful of raya is during semyang raya pagi tu.. time tu le..aku rasa mcm teruknye la aku sbg umatNya.. wic aku sendiri bilele nak berubah...ada keinsafan di situ.. n i believe all the muslim feltl the same way juga.. that is aidilfitri..
but bila asuk secodn n third.. wic the first week of raya shud be excited... fun..i fee so mellow n sad..
maybe i teringat kes thn 2005..wic i waited for someone for so long.. sooooo longgg i waited... suddenly i got the bad news.. that wass a tragic.. wic i dun think that the third party wud think it will give the bad memory for for the REST of my life.. (as i said ppl im not important to anyone)
so now makin lama..raya is not really important to me...less meaningfull...maybe u guys wd say that i ni x bersyukur..hmm but i bersyukur that i hv a happly fmly... nenek semua masih hidup..lovely aunts..cousins..
but i wonder.. wat happen if my parents is no more arond.wic is n the next 10 yrs maybe... wat happen to me?? hows my raya?
there is no words to explain the feeling...only tears wud explain it.. huhuh la plak.. thnak god that my parents named me fara..wic means kegirangan.. i still can laugh in tears..
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